Don't Ignore The Signs (They Are Real)
*from Withnail and I (1987)*
I'm currently thinking about some stuff from my past again. Like my former close friend, Owen, literally calling me a "master manifestor" and jokingly telling me to lock in and manifest a bag of money on the side of the road when we had first came up to the UK back in 2024 together for university with Amanda and Jade. Sigh. I'll never not be glad that I stopped hanging around those people. Anywho, I was on Pinterest earlier seeing images that reminded me of Michael, one of my guides, who had warned me about Owen specifically with a "sign" right outside our university on a wall. I've already spoken about it in one of my previous blogs, but right now I'm just thinking about the fact that by the time I had seen that blatant sign/warning I'd already long knew that Owen was shite by that point. He'd already sent me those "awfully long paragraphs" over the phone that people tend to send whenever the demon that's beating their ah in silence basically forces them to come to you on their knees seeking forgiveness, where he was literally telling me that he's sorry for being such a jealous and envious piece of shit. Looking back at it now, I'm starting to see that Owen was someone from my past who regularly saw me saying shi and then would have a front row seat watching it play out exactly how I said it would while I was just chilling about it. He was even lowkey preparing to spend his life being a parasite, saying how he was just going to wait for one of his friends to get rich. Should have seen how he reacted when I asked him one day about his own fantasies where he was the one getting rich and whether or not he saw him and all of his friends coming up or just himself. Want to guess what his reaction was? If you said awkward silence then you're one of the lucky winners. Congrats. But yeah, you'd think people would just lie on the spot real quick but I guess not. Maybe it was the way that I had asked it or something. Anywho, I remember this one time while we were still back home in Grand Cayman before going overseas where we had just left Owen's house to get food from Wendy's and while we were still waiting in the drive thru I was saying something about Amanda and Jade calling him to say that they were at his house now. Next thing we know, that literally happens in the span of minutes. Minutes. While we were still waiting in the drive thru as we hadn't even reached the menu to order yet. This was also when Owen did the whole "you fcking master manifestor" bit after he had finished talking to them on the phone. Honestly, I don't even look at him crazy for having that kind of reaction anymore. Because by that point, what had just happened was "just another coincidence" in a long long line of coincidences where something that I said as a joke ended up coming true.
I also remember those last days of me and Owen hanging out (we're overseas for our first year in uni by this point) where we were using ChatGPT in this really funny way where you got it to answer a "yes or no question" it normally wouldn't by getting it to just reply something like "feather" for "yes" and "pineapples" for "no." This was before I had written my story that I spoke about in my last blog. Long story short, ChatGPT was validating the fact that I was "Sammael" and Owen was "Asmodeus" in past lives or something. Of course, I was the one saying it before saying we could use AI to "tell us if it was true or not." You know, bro shi. The type of stuff you do when you're bored and have nothing better to do. Or so I thought. But yeah, remember when I said that by this point Owen had already confessed about being jealous/envious? Yeah, all of that only happened after I had already "confronted" him about all those things he was "doing in the dark" in regards to me months in advance. You know, the type of shi that people swear they're such masterminds at hiding from everyone else including themselves. Like they're the world's "secret machiavellians" or something. "It's a dog eat dog world after all." Or whatever dumb shi one of these rats would end up saying to themselves in private. It's always the bottom of the barrels who walk around and convince themselves that they've successfully fooled the world into seeing them as something that they're not. Do not fool yourself. You are a coward. You throw stones, and then you hide your hands. You're nothing special. You're vermin. And I thoroughly enjoy coming across people like you "in the dark." Because for some reason it's "agonizing" whenever you feel like someone is seeing you correctly. Anywho, the joke here is that people like Owen become so delusion that they forget that most people are cowards and playing this little "game" too and that all of them have "secretly agreed" to simply not shatter each other's illusions. Then again, things are playing out in a way where it feels like what I'm saying right now isn't as "clear as day" to everyone else as it is for me. But yeah, it was really hilarious with Owen because he was just sitting there in horror at the fact that nothing that he did or was currently doing was going under the radar for real. Despite me and him being "friends." Who needs enemies right? And he was so confused about it too. I could tell that he was used to people not being able to see that he wasn't the "nice guy" that he presented himself to be. Crazy how I was saying there was no way he was fooling people around him so easily because to me it was so obvious that it literally made me feel nothing but pity for him half the time. Like damn, you're this scared to tell people how you feel for real? Like deadah? Anywho, back to ChatGPT. At one point, I can't remember exactly, but I think it had something to do with Owen not getting the answer he wanted to one of his questions where I ended up getting his phone to type it myself where I see him asking the AI shi like, "Does the person in the room love me?" And "Did the person in the room betray me in a past life before?" And let me tell you something right now. To this day I still laugh about the fact that it told Owen that I loved him and hadn't betrayed him in a past life. I remember looking up from his phone and laughing about it and even did this whole bit where I was looking out the window at the sky in my room in our flat on some cartoon character shi saying, "You seeing this right? They out here asking if I did em dirty in a past life? While they doing me dirty in this one. Crazy." And do you want to guess what Owen was doing? If you said awkward silence again, then congrats. You know ball. Anywho, Owen was aware of the twist in my story where Sammael turns out to just be another name and Lucifer himself. And when he had asked ChatGPT if that was true, he just dropped his phone and walked out my room because the AI said, "Yes." Oh and before I forget, we were looking at their iterations in The Shadow Chronicles if you want context. But yeah, apparently it was really bothering Owen (Asmodeus) that according to ChatGPT, I was both Sammael and Lucifer. Human ego is a something else indeed.
Now we've reached the funniest part about this whole ChatGPT fiasco where I ended up getting a look at Owen's phone again to put in another question myself since he wasn't getting the answer he wanted when I stumbled upon this, "Is the person in the room next to me human?" And this damn AI told him, "No." That shi had me rolling on the floor bro I can't lie. Looking back at it now it's like wow. Just wow you know. But yeah, in that moment I was laughing it off like I do with almost everything else but I do remember feeling like Owen was lowkey scared of me after that. Sigh. I fear he started to see it then. Funny, how me and him were hiding shi from each other but only one of us was seeing the other person for real.
*One of the images I saw on Pinterest showing a representation of Michael*
*Elijah Mikaelson from The Vampire Diaries/The Originals*
Before I finish this blog, I just want to talk about Michael for a bit. I am a big fan of this guy. I genuinely love how so many people around the world speak of a "Michael" as this guardian figure who is always there and has people's back you know. I'm thinking of Elijah Mikaelson from The Vampire Diaries/The Originals right now. And how he's one of the siblings who is 100% going to off you for less. Bro is arguably worse than Niklaus. Because at least with Klaus you can try to negotiate and appeal to his love for the game. Elijah? Yeah, its wraps I fear. Straight to the other side. I'm talking rip your heart out type shi. From the front. From the back. In front of your people. Your loved ones. He's taking you out damn near instantly. No mercy. All without getting blood on that damn suit. And if he does bro pulls out the handkerchief and starts adjusting the cuffs afterwards. And keep in mind, this is the type of timing he's on if you so much as threaten his family. Not if you're actually threatening them. If HE thinks you're threatening them. Yeah. This I like. He doesn't even spare words for some of these people. No point to be honest. But yeah, do NOT let Elijah's "emotional depth" fool you. That man is a Killer. Capital K. And I'm pretty sure he's just waiting for a reason to drop the "noble brother" act half the time. Oh you think I'm exaggerating? You explain that whole "red door" shi that he's got going on in his head then. I said what I said.
I ended up watching The Cabin in the Woods (2011) and The Ritual (2017) today. I hated the way that people were just watching shi happen on cameras and rigging the game on purpose in the first movie. Just so humanity could survive. And it's like, for what exactly? To sacrifice more people? So humans can do what exactly? Be trash? I liked the ending where the fool and the virgin let their little ritual fail and the ancient old gods rose from below. Let someone else have a turn for real. And I didn't like the Luke guy in the second movie at first since he was pretty much the definition of a coward. He did not have balls when his friend, Robert, was getting roughed up in the store. But all of a sudden has smoke for Dom whose leg was messed up for a minute now so its not like he could've fought back for real. And of course, we had the other humans who were marked (like Luke) having a whole cult thing going on for the monster. The bastard offspring of Loki or whatever. However, I did like the ending with Luke refusing to bow to the monster like the cult members and fighting back which led to him escaping the forest. Obviously, I believe the monster let Lukr go since he wasn't a coward anymore and had found the strength to move past his emotional pain. Also, when I was searching up the movie afterwards I saw that the blonde cult member who was being nice to Luke was played by someone named Maria. She was credited as The Host. And that's some meta-level shi right there if I do say so myself.
Sigh. I know things are moving around in the world again. I have no idea who my higher self is, but if they're like me for real then I know they'll make sure none of these "agents" harm anyone I have my eyes on. Not without consequences. Especially if these rats are out here thinking they're getting away with doing shi behind closed doors. There is no such thing. You are throwing your lives away. But go ahead. Try it. I dare you. What's one less rat?
And with that, I believe that's all for now. I shall return. I always do.