The Writer’s Bloq

I began writing this (my 19th blog) on October 26th 2026 at 3:10 am. I spent the whole of yesterday resting. Or trying to, at the very least. Woke up with "The Lazy Song" by Bruno Mars playing in my head and figured that that was my guides as usual. I was dreaming too, but it was one of the many that I can't remember whatsoever no matter how hard I try. I was thinking about how as far as I'm concerned I've never been in the GATE (Gifted and Talented Education) program, but ever since my cousin (my uncle's eldest child) told me that her father had said that me and her were similar since we were both in "Gifted and Talented" I'm starting to really wonder about it. I know for a fact that they had something like that at my highschool (John Gray) back on Grand Cayman, but I was never in that. I can recall the tests we did for getting into that one. It was called CAT or something. It was math and english stuff. I'm sure I was messing around and did bad on purpose after hearing "this isn't graded." Should have never said that shi. Not to highschool Noah. Either way, I'm not talking about that. I'm talking about before John Gray. Before even primary school (Red Bay). Back in 2004, when I was apparently in the US (Miami) going to school for a month. A month that I can't remember for the life of me. I would have been five years old at the time. I was reading up about it and saw stuff about Zener cards (I know these cards I swear) and the pink drink again (this also rings a bell). Big Sister, being the goat that she is, did videos on this type of stuff too and in much greater detail than what I'd normally see on like reddit or something. But yeah, speaking of reddit, I was looking at how people who've had experiences with GATE have had moments where if they ask about it their parents or whoever get defensive and some have even spoken about getting migraines. Now that one caught my attention. I remember getting some crazy migraines when I was younger, especially when I was in highschool. Haven't gotten any in a long time. But yeah, they would always tend to start off the same. With my vision in one eye getting blurry first, which I learned was the "calm before the storm," followed by this like intense throbbing behind one of my eyes or like behind one of my brows. Shi was painful. And anytime it happened while I was at school it would always be so bad that I'd end up asking to go to the nurse's office and just lay down for pretty much the rest of the day. After going to sleep and waking up at 10:00 am today, I definitely can recall what I was dreaming about this time. I was walking around with Owen (wild I know) and we were going to what I assume would be "classes" together. Except for whatever reason we went to one where I felt like we had missed one too many. In my head, it felt like it was my second class on fridays, which is funny because I only have one. Either way, since this was the case that was when I figured I was dreaming and then woke up not too long after. Long story short, I was not pressed about whatever that lady (teacher) was saying. Fck her and her "fake" class. Owen's presence in the dream was the obvious "sign" that something was off. Speaking of classroom related dreams, it would be seem I've been having a lot of those as I'm now recalling my previous dream where I was doing some kind of "test" with people I knew from highschool while Silent Night was playing in the back.

Initially, I was planning on just talking about the two latest gundam movies I've watched, Mobile Suit Gundam: Hathaway (2021) and Mobile Suit Gundam Hathaway: The Sorcery of Nymph Circe (2026), which follows Hathaway Noa (who is obviously me), Gigi Andalucia (who is obviously Babelon again), Kenneth Sleg (the stand-in for your everyday agent?), and Lane Aim (the stand-in for your everyday starseed traitor?). Spoilers ahead by the way.

*The theatrical poster for Mobile Suite Gundam: Hathaway (2021)*

*The theatrical poster for Mobile Suit Gundam Hathaway: The Sorcery of Nymph Circe (2026)*

Gigi is apparently 19 years old during the events of both films. And since this is my 19th blog I'm just going to assume that that's not a coincidence. You know, the usual. Synchronicity galore. But yeah, long story short, Gigi has got like "witch" and/or "enchantress" vibes going on. She pretty much guesses that, or should I say, already knows that Hathaway is this anti-Earth Federation guy, Mafty. And before you even ask about it, yes, Gigi and Hathaway are doing that "dance" me and Babelon have apparently been doing across dimensions. Gigi is "chasing" Hathaway, who is playing "hard to get" as a result of him thinking about other things. In this case, that would be Hathaway's mission against the corrupt Earth Federation by offing high-ranking cabinet ministers ("elites"). The dude with the pumpkin head in the theatrical poster for the first movie is supposed to be an imposter who uses the name "Mafty" without any of the "ideals" for real. Funny, since we're so close to Halloween right now. Speaking of being an "imposter," Hathaway seems to also suffer from imposter syndrome just like me. In fact, his is definitely worse than mine, considering that Hathaway's done some things that he still can't reconcile. Sigh. There's this obvious gap between how people view Hathaway and how he is prone to viewing himself. While he's busy sometimes worrying about being an "incapable fraud," everyone else is seeing the "son of a hero," the "ideal pilot," and/or "the rebel leader, Mafty Navue Erin." The joke is that the first is simply just not the case, while the latter three are much closer to the truth. All three of those views are held by Kenneth Sleg by the end of the first movie. Also, the way that Gigi's hand and the XI Gundam's hand are being shown as one and the same in the theatrical poster for the second movie stands out. And no, I'm not going to bother explaining too much why what's obviously water is in that poster as well. Sometimes, things are just too obvious. Even for me. But for those unaware, starseeds come from the water. Anywho, Gigi and Hathaway reunite at the end of the second movie in a scene where Hathaway was putting belt to ah on one of those "I'm better than you and/or I'm your rival /enemy" guys, Lane Aim. Even while being in the middle of an identity/existential crisis. Gigi pretty much gets Hathaway to spare Lane's life in what can be described as her telling him to "put away his weapon." Which is something Babelon tells me to do often. Hathaway was also giving Darth Vader vibes as well. If you watch the scene, you'll immediately know exactly why I said that. No cap. This tracks because Hathaway was going to off Lane simply because bro was in a mobile suit that brought up Hathaway's past. A traumatic past at that. Surprising absolutely nobody. Such is the starseed life around here. Also, this pretty much serves as a representation of us kicking ah, taking names, and asking questions later. To be completely honest, I'm not too sure about my take on Kenneth and Lane being examples of an "agent" or a "traitor" 100%. I say that because in the movies Gigi is handling things in a way where everyone (Hathaway, Kenneth, Lane, etc.) is like navigating Earth with potentially different ways of "seeing the world" and sometimes they'll cross paths, which can lead to them fighting each other. And then, you'll have moments where she helps all three of them stay alive/safe. Even if she goes to be with Hathaway in the end. She protected Kenneth from some other woman who must've been intending to use him for her own personal gain. "Suck out his vitality." Her words not mine. And very telling words if I do say so myself (ifykyk). Also, she got Hathaway to spare Lane's life. I'm pretty sure that Lane was only in danger here because Hathaway was going through one of his little "temporary madness" episodes. Otherwise, Hathaway would've definitely just fought him until Lane couldn't fight back anymore. Which is exactly how their first fight in the first movie went down. This also tracks since I'm not so quick to cut down family after all. I'll beat you no problem. But cutting you down. Come on now. I'll even speak for you know who as well when I say that we are NOT that ruthless. No matter how much we want you to think that we are. Not going to lie though, since we're obviously good at the "always keep them guessing" game, you're not likely to believe me or take me serious when I say that anyway. Even though I just admitted it. Matter of fact, she's way more merciful and forgiving than she seems. I promise. Nothing but love is hiding under that hard exterior. She's practically harmless once you get past it. If you get past it that is. And no, I'm not talking about Gigi anymore. Who am I talking about then? Take a wild guess.

The song "Möbius" by Hiroyuki SAWANO feat. mpi & LACO & Benjamin is the opening theme for the first movie and it's literally an anthem (one of many) for starseeds. Of course, one listen to it is all you'll need to get why I say that. Also, the song "Snooze" by SZA is the opening theme for the second movie and has obvious "romantic" undertones. Shi. Saying "undertones" is hilarious in and of itself, but surely my guides know how I feel about all this "romance" stuff. As usual, I fear they're teasing me again. Either way, the song has that "ride-or-die" vibe going on which definitely tracks for both Hathaway and myself here.

This GATE stuff is weird. And I'm not sure why I can't remember anything even though stuff like the Zener cards are 100% things I've seen in front of me on a table before somewhere. And it feels like it was on some "regular school stuff" vibes too. But if so, why I can't I remember it then? It makes me think about how you can be on TikTok and come across people doing the "guess which shape is on this card", "guess which of these is in my hand", or even "pick one of these decks and if you picked this one this reading is for you" type shi. I've never thought about how often I've "guessed right" before. Seemed so "normal" and "within reason" to me. Thankfully, I'm not right all the time. Otherwise, you'd be reading the words of a very different Noah right now. Anyways, now that I know for sure Gigi is Babelon so many things are making sense now. She's definitely speaking through the screen in certain moments just like Laura Alden was in Wolf (1994). I watched that movie by the way. Laura definitely knew more about what was happening to Will than she let on, especially when they were talking by the pond/lake on her father's estate. At least to me. I also watched Endless Love (2014) as well. I'm actually glad that Hugh (another analogy for an agent/a traitor) turned out to not be so irredeemable despite all the BS he was doing to David (another analogy for me). Personally, I still wouldn't mess with him after all that. However, saving me from a burning house does help. A lot. Because if Hugh didn't save David in that house fire then he was a goner for sure. Oh and fun fact, that Lanterns TV Show I mentioned all the way back in my 1st blog ended with the character named Noah being revealed as an alien. Because of course he was.

Not going to lie, my last blog had typos left and right. So much so that I couldn't help but laugh when I saw that I could edit these this whole time. I'm not going to go back and touch my other ones despite seeing typos in those too. Can't believe I'm actually winning the battle against the perfectionist in me right now. But yeah, if you see anymore in this one and in my next ones then you already know they made it past my proofread phase before I hit publish.

And with that being said, that's all from me for now.

I shall return. I always do.