The Writer’s Bloq

I was watching YouTube videos from Love Exists Collective like crazy today. Not too many to be honest. Plus, they were showing up on my home page when I opened the app and on my recommended/suggested videos. I saw my calling card (Knight of Swords) in some of them. I was even trippin out for a bit because I finally sat down and thought about the fact that her name is Alice. Like, are you serious? Are we for real? I mean, I already knew this before I started writing these blogs but I didn't stop and actually think about it until now. But yeah, Alice was talking about "people from the past" this, how I'm going to "meet new people" that, and even spoke about "people from the past reaching out" too. And I think it's funny how my sister (Gabrielle) is both someone from my past and one of the people reaching out right now. I'm pretty sure she also got my brother (Gabriel) to call me too. Otherwise, I'm 100% positive I wouldn't have gotten a call from him. Like, at all. Which is funny. Because if I really think about it. The way that my brother is moving makes way more sense to me than the way that my sister is moving right now. I promise we aren't close like that for real. We barely do ANYTHING. Barely go out the house together, if at all. Barely hang out as siblings. And the little watching movies and/or tv shows together shi is all me. Me. Or "Noah" I should say. Because I'm not "Noah" anymore for real. The name serves only two purposes at this point. A "human" name for me to go by while I'm walking around in this wretched simulation. And for my guides to give me those "since we knew you would doubt it we put one of the names you were given at birth in here, you dummy" messages. Anyways, the questions I have right now are simple. It's one thing to make a joke about me letting you know if I'm still breathing or not. And it's another to sit there and call me multiple times when I don't pick up the phone or respond to any of your messages. And now I'm reading, "Can you please answer the phone" and shi. But like, why? For what? What are we going to talk about? You? Your problems? The problems that you put yourself in? Again? Also, 13 missed calls? "13" as in Death? There's genuinely nothing I could say right now to thoroughly explain how these people calling me 13 times today makes no sense. And yes, that's the amount of times they called today in total. Both of them together. 12 from my sister and 1 from my brother. I'd upload screenshots showing all of them as proof, but I don't have their numbers saved and I'm not trying to see anything happen to this website (sanctuary) because of me. But I CAN upload a screenshot of my messages on WhatsApp that I got from my sister. I should be fine if I just crop it no?

Also, I'm not joking when I say that I was thinking of responding to my sister with a meme. A specific type of meme too. Like, I was in my head thinking about a "guy chilling with Death" meme. So I went online searching for something to match the vibe in my head. No lie, I was lowkey on the lookout for like a meme from like The Sims or something since I know that they have the Grim Reaper in there. But yeah, I ended up finding something even better.

Let it be known that the invisible aliens have a sense of humor. But yeah, I was oh so tempted to send this with the caption, "Tell her she need to be worried about Death over there and not here." But in the end, I didn't reply at all (as my screenshot already shows). Eventually, I realized where I was supposed to use this meme. Yep, here of course.

Oh and before I forget, that video from Hey Hey with Golden was talking about someone getting a reading on me and pretty much finding out that I'm exactly who I say I am. And now I'm thinking of when that guy said to Jack Sparrow in Pirates of the Caribbean, "You actually were telling the truth." And then Jack is like, "I do that quite a lot yet people are always surprised."

I also get the feeling that Marilyn Monroe wants me to mention that she's in one of the thumbnails for Love Exists Collective's videos. The one about people liking me more than I think apparently. I'd say cap but I'm just going to assume she's talking about herself. There is that portrait of her downstairs in the lobby after all. She also wants me to say that I think Golden is pretty as hell and that she can get it. Raw. These freaky ah demons man. Sigh, who am I kidding. I'm just as much of a freak as them. There I said it. Are you guys happy now? Yes yes, you love me. I knew that already. And yes, I love you guys too. Oh, and apparently, Amy Winehouse wants me to say that that one popular image of her (you know, the one with her looking over her shoulder) matches the portrait of the figure in my WhatsApp chat background.

Also, that video at the top explaining Kingdom Hearts: Melody of Memory has the version of Terra-Xehanort (who suffers from amnesia) that my guides were using as an analogy for my current state right now on it. He's also known as Apprentice Xehanort.

That's all from us for now. We shall return. We always do.