The Writer’s Bloq

Picking up from where we left off with my human (fake) family members "checking" up on me. My younger sister (Gabrielle) and her older twin brother (Gabriel) were still attempting to reach out to me today. It's only been one day of me simply choosing to not respond to my sister's initial text about me letting her know if I'm still breathing and subsequent message about how she "hasn't heard from me in a long time." Even though we aren't even close like that for real and she's gone for far longer without replying to my messages. And yet, I wasn't all of a sudden "worried" about her safety or anything. Also, just like I was saying, my brother is making way more sense than my sister is right now. No clue what she's "nervous" about to be honest, but my guides have pretty much told me to keep quiet and observe. So that is what I will do. And no, me being in the UK due to studying overseas doesn't make my sister's actions right now any less weird. Of course, I got more calls (6) that I didn't answer as well. 5 from my sister and 1 from my brother. Again, I'm sure he's only calling because of my sister. Otherwise, I know for a fact that I wouldn't be hearing from him. And to prove my point, my brother did actually send a message today too. See the screenshots below.

*The message my sister sent to my other phone today at 1:08 am*

*The message my brother sent to my main phone today at 11:42 am*

So yeah, as you can see my brother is making a Warhammer reference I believe. I know he got into those games recently. Plus, I've watched a couple lore videos here and there. Tarot is also a thing in that universe too. Coincidence? Absolutely not. But like I was saying, one of them is chill and the other isn't for some reason. Shi makes no sense.

*Screenshots showing my YouTube history (for Today)*

But yeah, I watched 17 tarot/oracle videos on YouTube today. Which is the most that I've watched in a minute, so I'm pretty sure that things are really moving about this time around and my guides are letting me in on the tea. As usual. And my guides want me to pretty much show all the videos that I watched today since they're all important apparently. I won't go into too much detail since you can definitely see the vibes at a glance. But yeah, it doesn't seem like it's only my siblings that are moving weird right now. Toji Fushiguro is a very accurate analogy for me since I am the "black sheep" of my family. The human one at least. And just like Toji, I watched many of the people around me become just like Naoya. You know, the guy who initially looked down on Toji before ever meeting him because Naoya had heard that Toji didn't have any cursed energy. But then, after Naoya actually met Toji, all of a sudden Toji became his role model and shi. Yep, those same exact turn of events happened with me. Plenty of times. With both family and friends. And yes, I have "chosen isolation." I haven't made any new connections in the UK. I haven't even tried for real. And best believe, I've already dealt with weirdo behavior already regardless. Which of course, made me see that I benefited from not coming up here on some delulu shi and trusted my gut that most (if not all) of the people in my orbit up here aren't that much different from the people in Grand Cayman. Other than being more passive aggressive. Which I simply see as pure cowardice. Also, Hey Hey with Golden is definitely talking about someone older than me. Don't ask me who though. I ain't got no clue for real. But anywho, the name "Jack" was mentioned in a few of these tarot/oracle videos (e.g. being treated like a Jack in the Box). I also heard something about intelligence agencies monitoring the people monitoring me and whatnot. I even saw the Joker on one of the cards at one point. A funny moment happened when in one video the person was like I wasn't getting my flowers and then I got to the video with the flower emoji saying "You Died." The human version of me is dead for real now. No lie. My younger siblings might definitely be thinking that I've passed on. I even heard that thing I was saying about how people are going through shi and they know that it has something to do with what they've done to me in the past. Anyways, I was already saying before that a lot of the foul shi that was done to me are things that people were and most likely are still hiding from me to this day. And I've long stopped really caring to sit there and think that I'd ever hear about it from their own mouths. The person trying to "mirror" me is definitely my sister by the way. She has this thing with proving she's "independent" and how "nobody supports her" now. All while being the only one of the three of us to get her license and a full-time job first (as the "special child"). Both things I have yet to get. Crazy how being sabotaged by "family" can make it extremely difficult if not impossible to get a license or a job. All they've got to do is never teach you how to drive and then find some bogus excuse to never take you to a job interview if you have one. Hence why all of the jobs I've ever had were part-time and practically fell into my lap since I knew someone personally. But yeah, I've already peeped that me going overseas for university while my sister is struggling to do so is making her feel a type of way. Especially since she's been talking about going overseas to study for a long time. Long story short, she already knows she's "not independent" (quite dependent actually) and that in the grand scheme of things she's the "most supported" out of the siblings she grew up with (me and her twin). No idea why my guides want me to explain my sibling dynamics like that to be honest. To be honest, I don't care about this university shi in the UK for real. It started out as an escape from my piece of shi family and it's only recently that I've realized I could actually use some of the stuff that I'm studying/learning about around here to help my people (starseeds/aliens/demons).

Also, yikes. After watching that "They had no idea" video by Spiritually Speaking with Cassie, I guess I am genuinely "chilling with Death" like I was saying in my prevoius blog (21st) after all. Better than just "chilling" if we're being completely honest. But yeah, she's pissed as hell. And I hope you're familiar with that one video of that guy (Deji) saying, "I have no knowledge of any of this, this is so bizarre." Because I swear I didn't know it was going to be this serious for real. I mean, I knew the agents were moving already since my guides showed me that they were in my latest two readings that I got a couple of days ago. And yes, these are the same readings that I had spoken about in my 20th blog. Sigh. Also, like I was saying in my previous blog (21st) as well, I'm basically Apprentice Xehanort right now. And I'm not going to lie to you when I say that calling me a "mad scientist" wouldn't be too far out of pocket since I'm currently over here on the lookout for any "sign" whatsoever from my guides about "who" I am like some feral animal. Regardless though, I'm literally in my flat just vibing so I'm confused as to why we've just up and decided to throw our lives away. Like, I can actually feel the fact that Death (Maria) was just waiting for you people to do some dumb shi like this man. Like, she swooped into my room and threw heads at my feet om some, "They thought shi was was sweet so I had to remind them real quick." And I'm just there like, "Who even are these people?" And then Death is like, "Don't worry about it. I took care of it." Before proceeding to just watch me go about my day or something. Anywho, at one point Cassie here says the Grim Reaper is here and that Reeses Pieces and Texas might be significant. And they are. The Grim Reaper is Maria. Duh. I had my first Reese's Peanut Butter Cups up here not too long ago. It stands out since if I'm not stuffing my face with Subway then I'm stuffing my face with Greggs. So yeah, pretty significant. The Texas thing is where it gets really interesting. Why? Well, remember when I spoke about Babelon showing herself to me as blonde women since she knows that I'm into blondes? And that my very first message that I got from Babelon for sure was through that song "Porn Star Dancing" by My Darkest Days? And also the fact that Maria and Babelon are one? Anyways, long story short, my favorite pornstar of all time is Alexis Texas. And yes, she's blonde. Also, she grew up in Texas, for those who need Texas to mean the actual location. Alexis also has "Alex" in her name, which is a reminder that my guides will put one of the names that I was given as a human in stuff as "definitive signs." In this case, Alexis matches Alexsey (my second middle name). Alexis is also her middle name. Apparently, her full name is Thea Alexis Samper. Either way, one of the people who Cassie is talking about for sure, is me. Because saying the Grim Reaper (Maria), Reeses Pieces (Me), and Texas (Babelon) in sequence is like literally seeing a key turn a lock in my head. And no, I don't know who I am for real. Or at the very least I don't remember (amnesia). Cassie says in her video that I am the "sister/brother of Anubis reincarnated." I've heard the name a lot in the past to be honest. Especially in that one Rick Riordan series based on Egyptian mythology. Also, that whole caption about me rising as a "Protective Gatekeeper" tracks since I was calling myself a "warden figure" in my previous blog (20th). To be honest, being "related to Anubis" doesn't really tell me anything other than that I am obviously "related to Death" (aka Maria). Which I knew already way before seeing Cassie's video. But I can understand why my guides would show me this way though. I've been prone to doubting my starseed identity for a long time. Partly because I was only watching Big Sister's content (which I trust) for the longest time and I didn't feel like I could communicate with the hive for real. I even felt like I had "first met" the members of the hive through Big Sister's until I got the "nudge" to look back at all the things I grew up seeing in media. Funny when I think about it now. Like, I was going to be the one starseed that had the whole being targeted, sabotaged, and traumatized part down and none of the "supernatural" shi. Come to find out I've had my abilities my entire life so they literally feel "mundane" to me. At least, whatever it is that I'm doing right now that's allowing me to write these blogs and connect dots/see patterns in things both before AND after I finish writing, proofreading, and hit publish. Shi, if you told me a year ago that I'd be getting readings with movies and tarot cards by using random generators, and actually understanding them for real, I would have laughed at you.

Anywho, I believe that's all from me and my guides for now.

We shall return. We always do.